Rants and Blahs of a young teenage girl.

I HAVE MOVEEED BLOGGIE :)

2009-11-22T13:27:00.002Z

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BYE; ~i'll still be keeping this open :)

NEW MOON TODAYYYY <3

2009-11-21T21:50:00.003Z

OMGEE~ I saw NEW MOON todayss <3 I absolutelyyyy loved it ^^,

Especially Taylor Lautnerrr ;D ~ Maan, that dude was shirtless likeeee all throughout that film. *droooolz* Bahahaa~ Anyhuzzz. Yeahh. That pretty much sums up my day? Bahaaa.

Ooh, I had dinnerr at my mom's friend's housee too ^_____^; WOOH. So I had to catch a different bus, cos likeee they were already thereeee, and and likeee yeahh. As soon as I got to their house, there's this really superrrr cute kidd, my mom was playing with her, but as soon as she saw meee, she went straight up to me and hugged me! ^____^ I WAS LIKE N'AAAAAW <3 She's sooooo adorableeee <3 She kept giving meee hugs, and my mom tried to take herrr back, but she just wouldn't let go of meee! Cos she wuvss me that's why babay ;D

I wanna go back and play with herrr again. She smelt fruittty. BAHAAA;

Anyways, I'm planning to change my layout. Cos this one is really boring meee D:
I need something nice and newww. But I tried to change it likeee so many times, but ICBA to change it? LOL. I might change it now actually. BAHAAAA~ OHYUZZZZ. ;D <333

Anywaysssss, yeahh. Immaaa update it noww? BAHA <3

BEARRR <3

2009-11-20T22:05:00.002Z

Blaaaaaaah, I don't know what to sayyy D:

I just love you so so so muchh. I really really do. You meeeean the whole world to meee <3><"~ Beaaaaar, I neeed you right noww. I don't know what I'd do without you anymoreeee. My feelings really have gotten strongerrrr and deeper. I really havee fallen forrr you. There'd be no-one else that I would ratherrr have than my BEARRR. Bearrrr, you make me the happiest personnnn everrr. You makee my heart smileee so much. <333>

I loveeee you foreverr Bearrr ♥

I love everything atm :)

2009-11-20T18:29:00.003Z

I am absolutely happy with my life atm. There's nothing more I could ask for. I'm happy how everything is going. ^^, EVERYTHING IS JUSTT GOOD~!

Although, there are a few minor scratches, I guess its worth it anyways? :)

~bleeh; I gotta stop slacking off with schoolwork. :)) BAHAH.

MOCKS NEXT WEEEK D:

NUUUUUUH. FUH. =))=))

Random Ranting Timeeee~

2009-11-17T20:06:00.002Z

12747.) Im willing to break the rules to be inlove with you.

12657.) Theres nothing that I want more than you.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

2009-11-17T17:01:00.001Z

YOU MAKE MY HEART SMILE :)

OMFGGG NON-STOP EARGASM OF WEDDING DRESS ;D

2009-11-15T18:13:00.002Z

OH GOSHHH;~ I've been listening to Tae Yang's Wedding Dress likeee since when it was releasedddd. FUH.

I'M IN LOVE WITH IT <3

Like for realzzz D: ~
Mannn, I wish he gave me the ring instead of dropping it on ze floooor. :))

STUPIDPMSMOMENTS?

2009-11-14T23:07:00.002Z

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH;

KNFEOABGFVKABVKJRBHGBZJKHBVRGIEABVHDGRBF
SJDFVBKIABFRVKHJFHBGJKAFBD KGDJF VBKHBSFHJ

GO THE HELL AWAYYYYYY T_________________________T
WHY ARE YOU TORTURING MEEEEEEEEEE D:
='(

Absolutely IN LOVEEEE with this <3

2009-11-13T17:41:00.000Z

LA LA LA LAAAAA~

2009-11-12T18:35:00.003Z

Spain - Between The Trees

2009-11-11T18:41:00.002Z

"Give me a dance," she says
"Just take my hand," she says
I don't want anything
Let's make a getaway
Just me and you, babe
The rest of the world can wait
Cause I've been waiting for you, oh
I've been waiting for you, oh

I feeeeel so out of place.

2009-11-11T18:02:00.002Z

Lately, I've been feeling I'm not at the right place. I feel like I don't really belong here. I just feel unwanted atm. I don't know why.

Maybe I just don't really have anyone to run up to for the time being. BLAAAAH.

Why does this always have to happen to me?

2009-11-08T18:17:00.002Z

FFS. Why?

I'm sick of this.

Waaaah~

2009-11-07T20:03:00.004Z

LOLOL~

I haven't blogged for a while. D:

LOLZ. My pc effed up because I tried to clevahh. Haha. Oh dear, and I've just beeen busy to be honest, so yeah. Anyways.

Imma update soonies. :)

Funzziees with my dearies :)

2009-10-31T13:56:00.002Z

Ahh. Last night was really fun. Verrry chillaxed here at my house. We went to sleep quite early~! We had like some long ass day yesterday, and we were all really tired after school, so yeahh. I was pretty much really comfyy on the floor. <3 ~ Ahaha..

ajehfkabgaubekjagrejkbgwer

2009-10-29T19:12:00.001Z

I'm distracted and confused.

2009-10-28T18:49:00.002Z

I don't know what's wrong with me. I just can't seem to be bothered anymore? I just can't see myself in that position anymore. I don't know if this is just a one-off thing or making a mistake right now. I really don't know.

I just feel like, it's not the right time anymore? I really don't what the f*ck is wrong with me. I feel sad. Blaah. I feeeel so depressed now. Eugh.

HAHA. YOU SOOO FUNNY.

2009-10-26T21:12:00.000Z

Damnit. School's back. The bitching about you know who is back. DAAAAAAANG !

:))

I end my post here! LOLZ.

I just want to tell you this.

2009-10-25T18:36:00.002Z

Dear You,

I'm so thankful that a person like you exists in my life. Only you can make me this happy, and its the happiest that I've ever been. When I'm with you, nothing else matters apart from just being you and me. I can actually now see your worth when I gave you that second chance. I was told and adviced to not let you back in, and to just walk away and leave. But I didn't listen to them, because I BELIEVED IN YOU. The pain I went through was unbearable and I was literally at breakdown point, but I still believed in you. It was worth it. Everything was worth it.

Only you are capable of filling those spaces in between my fingers with your own. I just want to be with you all the time. I hate the fact that I don't get to see you anytime I like, and it just makes me miss you even more. I just miss you all the time. There never is a time when I don't think of you. In fact, I miss you now. Like so much.

I can sit here and talk about how you make me the happiest person alive all day. But no words can actually captivate the very essence of how much I TRULY LOVE YOU.

<333333333333333

2009-10-24T22:28:00.001+01:00

You're here
Your eyes are lookin' into mine
So baby make me fly
My heart has never felt this way before
I'm lookin' through your
I'm lookin' through your eyes

Rantings for today.

2009-10-24T17:58:00.002+01:00

12132.) i'm petrified of ever losing you again. and i'm scared of telling you. i love you more than you think i do.

12106.) "In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on." - Robert Frost

12088.) I really hate the fact that you're always hanging out with pretty girls. It makes me feel inferior. And it makes me feel like I'm about to lose you anytime now.

12080.) I'm scared to lose you.

11956.) you're a huge whore, and no body likes you. you're being pathetic, stop shit talking EVERYONE behind their backs, or your going to get yourself in alot of trouble.

"completely unavoidable"

2009-10-24T16:19:00.003+01:00

Ahh. I don't know if I should blurt it out on here, or just forget it and maybe it'll pass? I really don't know anymore.

Lately, I've been feeling really guilty. I've done so much crap. I've lost my conscience. I don't know if I've been careless or what? Ughh.

I just wanna apologize for my wrong-doings and can't help the fact that this was completely unavoidable. :(

I'M SO SO SORRY. I'VE COMPLETELY BROKEN YOUR TRUST AND YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW IT.

I'M SORRY.

Mmhmmmmmmm. <33333

2009-10-23T21:05:00.002+01:00

I'm bruised everywhereee. Haha. Painful, but fun ;D

2009-10-23T17:17:00.002+01:00

ZOMGG~ Well, I went to THE CHARLOTTE last night. I absolutely loved it! I had so much fun. I'd sooo definitely go back there again. ;D

So highlight of that night, hmm. Got stuck in a mesh a lot of times.. LOLZ. For one second I'm like with my friends then the next I'm like stuck in the middle and getting bashed and hit. :)) ~ But s'all good. Its funn. =D ~ Now I have likeeee bruises everywhere. :))

Ooh Ooh. There was this guyy I sawww. Maaaan, he looked really nice :) ~ Bwaha. Goshh. Well anyways yeahh.. It was fun? Bwahaha. He was in the mesh aswell. So we were like being pushed together and stuff. My friends were actually pushing me towards him, and for some reason.. everytime i looked beside me.. he was always there? Well most of the time? And and.. he kept looking at me.. :D Bwahaha. Flattered? Kinda.. Bwahaha. Shame I didn't get his name? Or whatever.. But yeahh. =D

Lolz. I really shouldn't be saying stuff like thiss. D: But but, it's not like I'm doing anything bad? HAHA :)) ~ And besides, I don't know if I'll ever see him again. And and.. blaah. RACHELLEEE SHUT THE EFF UP D: ~

Bwaaaaaah. I shall stop now ><" ~ Toooo much stuff. AHHH.

OLD TIMEEEES~! HAHA.

2009-10-21T16:03:00.000+01:00

Bwahaha~ I was just browsing, and I happened to have passed by my OLD CRUSHHH here online.

We talked, bwahaha. I suddenly remembered how I had like a huge crush on him, I'd actually try and put so much effort just for him to notice me. [i sound so desperaaaate, but yeah] ~ He did, but but but... I got my heartbroken in the end tho, cos I found out he had a GIRLFRIEEEND. Ouchhh. Ahuh, I had to get over him sooner so yeah. Loolz. Man, talking about this is weirrrrrd. Besides, my feelings for him back then weren't really that big. It was like in between just a normal crush and the feeling of wanting to have him by your side? Lolz. I don't know if you get me. But yeah. He was like a year older than me, and he only saw me as his little sister. So ouchhhhh again. Bwahah~ Now I treat him as my bigbrooo~ Yes. =D Bigbrooo for lifeyy. LOLZ.

Good old times. :))

But now, I'm happy ;D ~ Happy with my Dameyy ♥

EFFIN PISSTAKE. D=

2009-10-20T19:24:00.002+01:00

UGHHH~

GO DIE YOU MTHAAFCKINGGGPISSTAKER UGHHHHH.

THANKS FOR EFFIN RUINING MY EFFIN NIGHT. UGHH

PISSTAKE.PISSTAKE.PISSTAKE.

SUCK ON THAT. :@ EUGHEUFBVFIAUERVIHDEVAITGR

I'm bored. LOLZ

2009-10-19T19:37:00.003+01:00

BORED~ POO. LOL. This post is pretty much pointlessss~!

-i want a bento boxxxx. someone make me some! ;D I'm hungryyyy

HAHA~ Sorry, but this made me smile.

2009-10-18T23:26:00.002+01:00

"Happy Monthsary. (o: I cant explain how happy I am that we're back
togetherrr. Yaaaaay! Hahaa. I missed youuu. Aaaaah. I lovee you so muuuch. <3333">

BWAHAHAHAHA~ <3

YEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEYEY.

2009-10-18T15:45:00.008+01:00

Happy 1 Month Againnnnn BEAAAAR ♥ :)

I loveee you so much. ^_________^

~you mean the world to me, i'm so happy we're together again. I wish for this to last. ^^ Wheee. ILYILY<3

LOLZ. I found something interesting :))

2009-10-16T19:55:00.002+01:00

Written by a guy

1.Whatever you do, don’t just show up at their house .. they run around in their underwear just like we do.

2.Don’t cheat on them. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything. Trust me, they will find out and you will be mud.

3.Beware of every single male relative and all guy friends. Any of them would kick your ass at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn’t even wait for the hat.

4.Never miss an opportunity to tell them they’re beautiful.

5.don’t refuse to kiss in front of your friends. If they laugh at you, its because they’re jealous.

6.If they slap you hard, you deserved it.

7.Don’t be afraid to touch them if you want too. If they’re going out with you in the first place, it’s because they like being in your arms.

8.If you don’t sleep with them, do not tell your friends that you did.
~8.5. if you do sleep with them, don’t tell your friends that you did.
you can be dirty minded in private. Really, most of them are not offended by it.

9.Not all of them eat like birds, a lot of them eat like whales.

10.Most of them don’t mind paying half of everything, but they do discuss these things with their friends.

11.Realize that if you make your girlfriend pay half all the time, everyone will know about it, and your friends will know you’re a pussy.
~11.5. Do you honestly need all your money that much? Be a man, pay all the time.

12.Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend; a stuffed animal, one of his sweatshirts, and a really pretty ring. Even if its not a serious relationship.

13.Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you’re dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren’t dropping her off, call to be sure she’s home safely.

14.If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to beat the crap out of him.

15.If you’re talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer.

16.Never, ever slap her, even if it’s just a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, “Oh, you’re so dumb” or something, never make any gestures back.

17.Go to a chick flick once in a while. she doesn’t care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went.

18.You’re dead meat if you cant get along with their pets, parents, and best friends. Be prince charming to their friends, Mr. Polite to their parents, and make sure to be nice to their animals.

19.Don’t flirt with their moms, thats just freaky.

20.Don’t be freaked out by PMS. It’s not gross, and it really does make them feel like crap, so be understanding.

21.If you don’t like the way they drive, you do it.

22.If you’re officially dating, and you’re introducing her to your friends, you’d better introduce her as your girlfriend.

23.Don’t stress where you go for every date. They really only want to be with you.

24.If they complain that something hurts, rub it for them without being asked.

25.Girls are fragile, Even if you’re play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle.

26.Memorize their birthdays. You forget her birthday, and you’re basically screwed for life.

27.Don’t marinade the cologne, but smell good.

28.Don’t give her something stupid for her birthday, or Christmas, or Valentines day. It doesn’t have to be expensive, but it has to be meaningful. Jewelry is always nice.

29.If you think the relationship isn’t going to last, don’t wait to find out. It will hurt you more if you draw it out.

30.After you’ve been dating for a while, realize that they really have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts you, you have a lot more responsibility, and privilege and control than you would think. Be careful with it, most guys would kill for that kind of power, and it can be lost in a nanosecond.

FAILURE? D=

2009-10-15T19:57:00.001+01:00

I feel like a failure atm. Ahuh. ><" ~
It's like a slap on the face. LOOOLZ.

BLAAAAAAAH.

I NEED TO WORK A BAZILLION TIMES MORE HARDER THAN HOW I USUALLY WORK.

LIKE SERIOUSLY. NOW.

SO BUSYYYYY~

2009-10-14T21:07:00.001+01:00

Blahhh. I've been so busy. T_____T;
It's only just hit me! WTEFFFFF.
LOLZ. So yeahhhhhh.

Yet again, IDK.

2009-10-11T17:42:00.004+01:00

QUESTIONS. QUESTIONS. QUESTIONS.

i need answers :(

My horoscope makes me LOL.

2009-10-09T23:21:00.004+01:00

Scorpio

Today: Friday 09 October

An unwelcome moment of self doubt tends to cloud issues today, especially in romance. You had it all worked out and you knew what you wanted to say, but then the internal niggles start about whether you dare to, whether you're good enough, whether or not you're important enough to him. Speak out, Scorpio. Take your chances. If he doesn't like it, he wasn't right for you.

~ as if that's true =/

FML. T___T

STUPIDEFFINPIECEOFSHIZ

2009-10-09T22:58:00.002+01:00

I'm tired of waking up every morning thinking it still hasn't gone away. I'm tired of your crap. I'm tired of their crap too. I'm tired of pretending. I'm tired of useless things. I'm tired of waiting. I'm tired of me.

I'm tired of being tired.

You Never Said Goodbye.

2009-10-09T22:33:00.001+01:00

and i used to think that we would be together for always eternity through
the wind and the rain you and me for better or worse all i can see how you broke
my heart in two tell me what was us to do i had no choice to close the door now
you wanna get back in but tell me girl what have you been.

Let's experiment.

2009-10-09T21:44:00.001+01:00

Before you can grow up, you must fall in love 3 times. Once you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever. This will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more. Once you must fall in love with someone you believe to be perfect. You will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as any less than you deserve. And once you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you. This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be.

And when you’re through with all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt, and the ones that hurt you are the ones that you needed the most. But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined, it is different to each person that experiences it. And you will learn to respect each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved.

Highlight of my day: SUSHI & MR FISHIEE :)

2009-10-09T20:58:00.002+01:00

Goshhh. Today was soo fun. <3

I learnt how to make sushi! Ohyuzzz. SUSHI FTW. ;D

And, OMGOMGOMG..

After we bought ingredients for our SUSHI MAKING SESSION, we went to this Chinese take away place near it. Called AROMA, ZOMFGGG. When I went in.. My jaw literally dropped. :)) ~ There was a really cute guy at the counterr. :)) So I was just like.. Mm okay, bahaha. Then like.. when me and Vernadine had to decide what to get, but I just could not look at the guy. I just kept staring at the menu.. Then when we decided what to get, I was telling Vernadine to order, but she just wouldn't.. She was too shy.. But then I said that I didn't want to say it cos I'm too shy aswell. So we got Krizia to say our orders..

Gosh. We could not stop laughing.. Cos if I said the order.. I'd just end up laughing and get really embarassed even more.

So yeah.. GOSH. He's soooo cute. ;D LOLOLOL. He was like smiling aswell. So ohyessss. SCOREE! =D=D

Good times. Good times.

HOLY SHI. D=

2009-10-08T20:46:00.004+01:00

ZOMG. Today was quite the adventureee. =))

Seriously, I could've died of scaredness? It was so intense and just aaaaaaaaah.

I shall start from the very very start!

Woke up. Did the normal routine. Went school. I was planning to skive off Art, but I just had so many errands to do and it just piled up and I couldn't leave it. So yeah. So then like, after school went to see a movie. But someeeeeeone, just had to make me pick.. so yeah. I picked a crap one. Blah. Anywayssss, like half way through the movie, my mother rang me and was questioning me and shi like that.. Good thing I didn't panic. Cos if I did. I'm dead. Seriously. I could've never felt anymore guiltier than this. D= So yeaaah.. This is how the conversation went actually:

Mom: Where are you?
Me: At Chantelle's doing some presentation thingy for
Englishhh
Mom: Oh okay, why is it quiet there?
Me: We're watching TV
[that's where I started panicking]
Mom: But aren't you supposed to be doing
your presentation? [SHISHISHI]
Me: But we are.
Mom: Are you lying to me?
Me: No. [shame on me. :))]
Me: I have to go now.. I need to use the
bathroom. [LOLZ]

Anywaysss.. So yeah.. I couldn't like stop looking at the time.. Cos cos.. my parents we're gonna pick me up at Chantelle's between 7 and 7.30PM ~ So yeahh.. I didn't know when the frickin movie was gonna end.. So good thing it ended at 6.30 =D

Soo yeahh. I got on the bus.. I was just like.. fuhh. Where the hell do I get off.. So I asked Chantelle, and she said Bowhill Grove.. so I was like.. Ok. To be honest, this was the actual first time I was on a bus to Chantelle's and at night too. =)) ~ So yeahh.. Most people we're getting off and less people were on the bus.. LIKE DUHH.

And then it got up to the point, where I'd be the last person on. I got scared. NO JOKES. I was just like.. FUHFUHFUHHHH. So I got off somewhere that I don't even know. I don't even know if it was the right place.. so I had to call Chantelle and I was on the phone to her while I walked, like seriously.. no-one was like out on the streets, it was just basically me on my own.. in the darkk. D= So I was just walking and walking.. and I'm just like.. WHERE THE FUHH AM I? Cos Chantelle told me to walk straight, so I did. But I think I was at the wrong place.. She was asking me where I was.. But I couldn't frickin read the street names cos my eyes are crap.. so I was describing what I was seeing, and all I could say was that there were houses. WTFF. =)) So I was just walking everywhereee. I didn't know where the fuck I was going! And the TIME was fricking catching up on me. It was like.. 7.15PM ~ And I was still lost! Chantelle's dad was looking for me.. and all I could do was frickin PANIC. D= ~ I was on the phone to Chantelle's mom aswell, and I was telling her where I was and what I was seeing, and stupid meeee.. I got off at the wrong stop.. and I was on the other sideee. Instead of me being in Thurnby, I was in frickin NETHERHALL. WTFUHH. It was soo scary. There were no people whatsoever.. D= I was like thinking shitty stuff. What if I dieeee? [i know, exaggerated =)) but seriously, the tensionn!]

But thenn.. Luckilyy.. Chantelle's DAD found me! I could've never been so happierrr. T______T; I was so upset and happy and shi scared and whateverrrr. All I could do to Chantelle's parents were apologize and I know I owe them big and Chantelle to. What they did for me tonight is very big and I love them for that. I definitely will make it up to them..

Gosh. It was so emotional. D= ~ I cried to Chantelle's mom, and I couldn't stop apologizing to both of her parents. T_____T; GOSH.

The stuff I go through. FUH.

I have never been so scared-shitless in my entire life. T_______T

Dodgy times. Dodgy moments.

2009-10-07T20:54:00.002+01:00

I feel so unwanted atm. IDK why. I can't help but think that I'm just a useless person. I don't see whether you actually do care or what. All you kinda think is about yourself? IDK. I've been an open book lately. Maybe it's time to start closing some pages.

I just don't need you to pity me. :(

I should really go and rest. BUT ICBA.

2009-10-06T19:08:00.004+01:00

Went Oxford today! =D ~ T'was for our Art trip. It was really interesting and really good! We went to this superrrr cool museum, and it was soo cool. :)) ~ I sound like a kid. BAHAHA.

But yeah, there were lots of interesting stuff and we did our sketches for our "Portraiture" topic. ;D ~ All in all. IT WAS FUNN! I'd love to goooo back there sometime.

Wanna know an interesting fact?
The thing in the picture [lol, "thing" - can't remember the worddddd] has been made by just using ONE TREE. It was for some tribal thing, I think? Paaah. I can't remember much D= ~ But but. Blaah.

I suck at explaining things. I hate explaining things. WTF. For now, just be amazed with it. I think this was carved by a person? =D LOL. Blahh. Forget it. I SUCKK. :))

AAAAHIUDGWSIGDWIGDWU

2009-10-05T19:45:00.002+01:00

Sometimes, I just hate being a girl. There's just too many things. There's like rules. There's like expectations and shi. LOL. I hate how we have to go through things and those things are just BLAAAAH. Sometimes, I'm just tired of being a girl. :))

THE END.

<333333333

2009-10-04T21:21:00.001+01:00

Final Destination.

2009-10-04T21:11:00.002+01:00

You're my final destination.

:)

2009-10-03T20:08:00.001+01:00

When i looked at you, my life made sense. Even the bad
things made sense. They were neccessary to make you
possible.

i love you and only you.

2009-10-03T13:18:00.001+01:00

Rewind Please.

2009-10-03T12:27:00.004+01:00

I don't like this feeling at all. It's wrong to feel

like this. T_____T

Complications are tough.

2009-10-02T20:26:00.000+01:00

Today, I witnessed my friend pour her heart out. She broke down and cried, I didn't know what else to do other than to comfort her and let her cry even more.

What I'm amazed about is that, behind her tears it was something that she referred to as being "embarassing" or "stupid" - I didn't find it embarassing or stupid at all. I could feel what she was going through. She has been through a lot, and I just want to be there for her. Seeing her cry and why she cried just reminded me of stuff I've been through. She had a similar a problem to me, but the dilemma was different to mine.

I just don't get these kind of complications? I know they happen because they're trials that we'll have to surpass eventually. But sometimes, when it hurts, it just hurts too much. There's nothing we can do about it, other than to be brave and conquer it.

I want to tell you something. Something that you've probably
heard a thousand times? Or even more than that. But I don't care. I just want to tell you that, no words can describe nor captivate the very essence of how much you mean to me and how much I truly treasure your existence.

~ you're everything.

=D

2009-09-30T21:08:00.000+01:00

By the way just in case you care
I'm here to stay, I'm not going anywhere
I took a dive in your deep dark eyes
And I'm never coming up for air
I lost myself in this bond that we share

ZOMGG

2009-09-30T20:12:00.000+01:00

Okays. I am in serious need of going into an intense diet. D= ~ I feel so fat. T______T
No jokes. I actually do. I've gained weight, I know its some stupid increase, but with that tiny amount of increase, it's making me feeeeel like this. ><" ~ Blaah. I'll do whatever it takes just for my weight to go back down again D; ~ I don't care if I don't have to eat or whatever. (okay, maybe that's kinda exaggerating but.. AHHH)

OH POOH. I'm being too much of a girl with my weight. Eugh. I hate my weight. I hate my weight. I hate eating. BLAAAAAH.

I'm fat. EUGH. TT______TT

LA LA LA LA LA

2009-09-29T21:49:00.000+01:00

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about taking chances and
how it’s really just about overcoming your fears. Because the truth is, every
time you take a big risk in your life, no matter how it ends up, you’re always
glad you took it.

let's play the predicting game.

2009-09-29T21:30:00.000+01:00

Mm. I predict, that this thing that I'm thinking/assuming is correct. I know for sure it's gonna "occur" any time now.

If it does happen. Slap me now. Cos this is just another shit that I just got myself in to. When I know I should've listened to you guys.

I'm being unfair. I know.

2009-09-28T19:27:00.000+01:00

Eugh. I'm up to the point where I have to pick, a full 100% where I risk everything or the 50% just to be on the safe side. I shall challenge myself on this.

I’m just going through a phase right now. Everybody goes through phases and all, don’t they?

~ Indeed they do

<3

2009-09-27T17:18:00.000+01:00

Sometimes all we need is an emotional slap in the face
to get us back on track.

FFS. I just want to be alone.

2009-09-27T17:11:00.000+01:00

I am so sick of you. I am sick of your nagging and shitless things. Why does every mistake have to concern with that. FML.

Blaah. How do I put this into words? Okay, I need a job. But my dad is making me get a job at waitrose? BUT, I don't want to have a job there. I just ergh. IDK. I want one somewhere else. And now, apparently I was supposed to be interviewed yesterday? My dad made me check my emails. VOILAAA. I did not get any emails. So much for the whole.. "you never listen to me shit"

I am so pissed off. I dislike you.

CONFUUUUUSED.

2009-09-26T21:18:00.001+01:00

Mmhm. I'm confused atm. Maybe it'll get better soon. FINGERS CROSSED.

This is boring me now.

2009-09-26T18:15:00.001+01:00

LOL. CHYEAAAH. I might move to tumblr.com
But then I have posts here. BLAAAH. What do I do? O____O"

I don't like the whole template thingy. I want my own layout, with the gadget in it. LOL. I'm so demanding.

i'm here falling for you.

2009-09-14T18:21:00.001+01:00

So busy nowadays. T^T

2009-09-14T17:40:00.000+01:00

Yeah, I've beeeen busy a lot. As in yeah. Really busy. I will update soon.

YOUR EYES MAKE ME SHY.

Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere,
they’re in each other all along.

I'm just really tired.

2009-09-11T22:27:00.001+01:00

Woo. I'm through my first week of college. So tiring. So I can't blog much. Paah. I have so much work to do and stuff. So yeh. ;D

I cracked. I really did.

2009-09-10T20:23:00.001+01:00

He knows. He knows I've still not moved on. ><"

What a big mistake of telling him? I swore to myself I wasn't going to. But I did. Amf.

Now. I don't know anymore. =/

Falling asleep...

2009-09-09T19:40:00.000+01:00

Yes. I've been lacking of sleep a lot, as in a lot.

Especially last night. Me and my ex were texting each other, and he seemed depressed and stuff, so I offered to help him and comfort him. I don't know why I did that. Well, I know for a fact that I still have feelings for him, but these feelings are now the kinda thing that I'm not sure what they are about? So yeah, I was comforting him and everything. Then he surprised me with a shocking text. I really did not know how to respond to it, so I just didn't reply. I've not said nor done anything to reply to that message he sent me.

That particular message he sent me was something that made my face go. O____O;
I really did not know how to react to it. His text message consisted of him admitting what he really feels, and that he still loves me? But I don't know if its for realz. I'm guessing he just didn't mean it. I don't think he did anyways. Well, that's what I think. So up to now, we've not spoken to each other, and I don't think I'll be speaking to him soon. Or maybe? Idk. I'm confused again. Thanks a lot.

After that, I couldn't sleep or anything last night. So now I need to sleep. I want to sleep. But I can't yet, I have to sort out school stuff and ugh.

I can't organise my stuff, I don't know how to start or whatever. I just don't know.

FML.

Before I go to bed...

2009-09-08T22:09:00.001+01:00

When you fall in love, thats where you stay, you can say to yourself a million times that your done, but you never are, even the slightest thing that he/she does that makes you smile, is a sign that that love..is still there.

I'm a wreck. Thanks.

2009-09-08T21:47:00.000+01:00

I WISH I CAN JUST SCREAM MY FEELINGS OUT. I WISH I CAN JUST TURN THINGS
BACK TO HOW IT WAS BEFORE I EVEN KNEW YOU. I WISH THAT I WOULD JUST STOP
SAYING "I'M OVER YOU" OR "I'VE LET GO" BECAUSE I KNOW I HAVEN'T. I JUST WISH
THAT I'D STOP FOOLING MYSELF.

MY WEAKNESS IS YOU.

Time completely dragged today.

2009-09-08T18:04:00.000+01:00

We didn't start our lessons today. We had this kind of skills and learning lecture today. Like how we can be successful with our revision and stuff for A Levels. We were like separated in to groups. The group activities was fun, but the rest was just a complete drag. ><" ~ Time was too slow to move. I nearly fell asleeeep! But the good thing is, lessons start tomorrow. SCOREE.

I'm too excited for things. But I know for a fact like, after a couple of months, I'd be slacking off again. So now, I'm going to TRY not to get any distractions from anyone, anything, and especially that specific thing that has been distracting me a lot. I'm not gonna promise myself, cos I know for a fact I'm just gonna end up breaking a promise to myself. And that would suck. So yeah, for now. No more distractions. I shall be a good girl. ^_____^;

Haha. That made me LOL.

Actually, there's been one thing that's been annoying me a lot. I don't think I can say what it is, cos like, people can read it. But I just hope everything just work out in the end. Right now, YOU HAVE COMPLETELY WRECKED MY CALM THOUGHTS.

First Day Back to School. 6th Form <3

2009-09-07T17:03:00.000+01:00

Hah. Today was really fun. I'm loving my new form~! I really am. ;3

The only downside for me today was that, those friggin VANS I own gave me hell. ><" Like, they are soo not the most comfortable shoes ever. I was walking this morning to school with my walking buddy Vernadine, and I was complaining so much how it was starting to hurt. So yeah, now the back of my feet are like blistered up? Hah. I don't even know if blistered is a word. LOLZ. So yeah. They frickin kill! T^T

So tomorrow, I'm gonna make sure I wear appropriate shoes. Haha. The comfy ones :)

For some reason, it feels really weird being at school. I mean, I'm quite glad I'm back, but on the other hand I feel weird. Maybe it's cos we don't wear uniforms anymore? Hmm. I kinda miss our uniforms. Hah. Maan. I feel like an adult now. xD LOLOL. But I am still child. I know that for sure. Haha.

So like I want to share this, I've beeeen dying to share this since yesterday, but then I got scared someone might end up seeing it and stuff. But ohwellz. But..

Warning: Tagalog Post. Don't think you'll understand this. Sorry ><"
...or maybe you will on some parts? Haha.

So, ka-hapon.. may umamin. Oo inamin na naman nya na may gusto pa rin xa sa kin. =.="
ayun. yun lang gusto ko sabihin. ahaha. Xempre, na siyahan naman ako. Pero sabi nia, "sa tingin ko may gusto pa rin ako sa yo" i mean, it's not for definite right? Pero may konting hope naman. :)

So yeah. LOL. That was fun. Shared it all out? Ahaha. :)

Eugh.

2009-09-06T20:56:00.000+01:00

Today was pretty emotional. Got someone snitching on me, so yeah. She meddled in to my business. Made me sound like such a really bad person. Gah. But I didn't mean it tho? They seem to just don't understand. =.="

Its always like that. For once, you just gotta listen to me.

LISTEN TO ME.

Super Cute Bento ;] <33

Typical Saturday.

2009-09-05T18:44:00.000+01:00

Haha. My current obsession at the moment is this:

Ohyush. 4Minute ftw <3

~Blaaaah. Tomorrow is my last official day until I go back to school. ><"

A Change.

2009-09-04T19:32:00.000+01:00

Update: New Layout! ~ Yeah, I kinda got bored with my old one, and I decided to change it. So yeah. Hah.

Well, I'm gonna take a break with all the crap I've been posting. All the shit depressing stuff. ^ ^,

So yesterday, I decided to dye my hair. I picked this "Light Red Brown" colour. Since it was my first time dyeing my hair, I was kinda scared? I was gonna back out but then again, I wanted a change. But the thing is my hair didn't go as it was suppose to go in the picture? You can barely see it? Well you can, but it's not like "ZOMFGGGG SHE DYED HER HAIR" kinda thing? So I'm thinking of re-doing it. So we'll just have to see. xD ;

School on Monday. I'm quite excited. (:

.

2009-09-03T21:20:00.000+01:00

The pain is knowing you're right for each other, just not now.

What if your ex said these?

2009-08-31T20:35:00.000+01:00

What if your ex says...

Why did you let me go?
"Because you no longer love me, and that you were starting to have feelings for another girl. There was no point me staying around."

I still love you.
"I still love you too."

When did we last talk?
"Yesterday."

Will you go out with me?
"Okay?"

Hey, can I give you a ride?
"Of course you can :)"

I cannot keep my promise to you.
"Which of your promises?"

My friends say we don't look good together.
"Who the eff cares if we don't."

You changed.
"Everybody changes."

Can we get back together?
"Only if you prove your worth to me."

Oh, I knew what this is all about. You found someone else.
"No. I'm just being careful. "

Don't you realize? You are the one who hurt me!
"Dude, get your eyes checked. You hurt me. You caused me to be like this."

How can you forget our memories?
"I haven't. I'm still hanging on every single one of 'em."

I will always love you.
"I will always love you, too."

Here it goes..

2009-08-29T16:06:00.001+01:00

I thought at one point, it was all gone. My feelings for you were gone. Everything was gone. I thought that I was going to be happy again for once. I missed being happy. I missed not worrying about anything. I just thought I'd be fine. But I guess, I'm still not there yet.

Dear You,
I lied to you. I said I was going to be fine. Truth is, I don't think I'll be for a long time. I know it's been like, 3 weeks. But I cant seem to let go. I know you've moved on and you have a new person in your mind. But you'll always be in my mind. There never was a day that you weren't. Right now, I'm missing you like hell. I know I should've said or showed something that I still cared and wanted you back. But time caught up with us. Time has set you and me free. I guess it's too late now. There will be things that I wished I told you before. But I can't say them now. I love you so much that it hurts even more as the day passes. I just miss everything. I missed what we had. I miss how you'd tell me you love me and that we'll be together for a long time. But that didn't work did it?

For some reason, I don't really care anymore what you've done to me. I guess that just shows how much I love you. I wish you coud've seen how much I cried and bled my heart out. Even now I still tear up. Every night I'd close my eyes and imagine your voice telling me how much you love me. But right now, that's just an illusion that is impossible to happen. No matter how insensitive you are to me, I'd still love you.

I remember the first night I fell for you; I haven't gotten up since.

Truth be told I miss you.

2009-08-11T17:34:00.001+01:00

Fuhh. My parents are being such dorks atm. They still treat me like a frickin child. They don't understand it anymore. Lol. Maybe cos of old age? Ahaha. Stinkk.

Anyhuz. Yeah. I really have no idea what to say anymore. My mind's quite blank lately. xP
So yeah. :)

I don't know.

2009-08-09T20:36:00.000+01:00

Okay, this is like for realz now kay? I'm ready to let go.

The other day, all the text messages from him were deleted and yesterday.. I deleted his number, all the emails from him, pictures he sent me, and anything else that reminded me of him.

But there's always gonna be one thing that will always remind me of him. "Bear" ~ Its what we used to call each other.. T^T

I hope this time, I can let go. Like fully.

My mind has been occupied a lot.

2009-08-08T11:10:00.000+01:00

I've been keeping myself busy this week, and I've managed to do that so. Starting from Monday, til like yesterday (Friday) I've been doing nothing but going out. It was one way to stop me from thinking things, and it did. But I kinda think I've overdone it. I now feel really crappy, tired, and everything's just bleeh.

Well, I guess I should really say this now. It's over. Everything is over. Now I just gotta move on. But I can't, I think that I can never move on. The only thing I can do is to just let go. Let go of everything. But there's so much things that reminds me of him. And this is just the most annoying thing ever. T_T

I take back what I said.

2009-08-04T19:36:00.001+01:00

I can't do this. When I'm with my friends, I feel happy and not alone. Everything seems okay when I'm with my friends. But when it's just me that's when I start to feel alone. That just seems to be the hardest part of falling in love.

I'm here and it feels like hell, and he's out there probably enjoying things and he's probably not bothered anymore. Ouch

It's starting to slowly ease.

2009-08-04T17:57:00.000+01:00

Today, I had so much fun. I was cheered up by my friend, and I haven't felt that good since like yeah. I'm still upset, but I think I'll get through this. I think I'm ready.

I bought a book called the chicken soup for the teenage souls, I've always wanted this book and now I've managed to got hold of it. I've read a story from it, and it seems like a pretty good book. Something that'll help me with the trials that I'll have to face later on.

But for now, I think that I'll need to let my heart start to heal on it's own. There's no shortcuts or anything. But I think I'm just ready to let go now. I just think.

I hope time really does it.

2009-08-03T15:19:00.001+01:00

Okay. Im trying to really think this through. But my mind's still messed up. I really cannot think straight. So I'm gonna use this time, with caution. My feeling's for him are now currently messed. I really don't know anymore. I hate being like this.

I don't whether to do whatever or faak. I just don't know. I just need to erase everything in my mind and re-think everything back bit by bit and think it thoroughly.

I just feel like, once someone's doubted their feelings for you, it's just hard to believe it the next time they'll say something that its real now. What they had back for you is just there again. I don't know now, if I should just let go and forget about everything and just do nothing anymore or fight for what i really feel? But the thing is my feelings are messed up now.

I'm stuck.

I thought it was all going to be okay.

2009-08-02T15:35:00.000+01:00

I've been having sleepless nights. I've gone off food. I just don't wanna eat anymore. This is hard.

At one point, I thought I'd be okay today. I thought I can get through this, but i really can't. I just had to burst in to tears again. These tears are pointless. Its not as if it's gonna change anything. This isn't even me anymore. I cant even think straight anymore. I am sick of myself and everything else that involes me in.

From this day onwards, im promising myself to actually let go. I don't even know how to start. But I wanna promise.

I really miss him. I really do.

-

2009-08-02T15:34:00.000+01:00

i'm gonna hurt

i'm gonna cry

i'm gonna tear me up inside

I just need to get this out.

2009-08-01T22:53:00.000+01:00

I hate myself for not expressing myself. But..

I am so mad right now. I don't know wtf I feel. I'm just feeling everything! When you told me you no longer felt the same crushed me so hard. You broke my heart into so much pieces, that makes it impossible to put back together. I believed in you. But it's different now. You no longer love me. YOU NO LONGER LOVE ME. T_T and I'm here still madly in love with you. Right now, I am missing and loving you so much, but I still hate what you did. I hope you're happy. I hope you're happy whatever happens to you. I'll just sit here and watch and think how much of a fool I am for loving you this much. I want to stop it. But I can't. Its hard. I love you so much that I don't think I wanna stop. But that's just idiotic. I know. I'm an idiot and a fool and all there is. I just love you.

I've said this too much, but i just love and miss you a lot atm.

I have a dark cloud above my head.

2009-08-01T12:04:00.001+01:00

Yes. I actually do. Its like the darkest out of the darkest colors. Its just above my head. Filled with anger, disappointment, sad thoughts and other crap. Yesterday, my post was a bit too much. I just kinda panicked? I really don't know. So yeah.

I broke up with my boyfriend yesterday, because he told me likes someone else now, and he no longer loves me the way he did before. Its painful, but I just pretended I didn't care when he told me. WTF was I suppose to say? Cos I really didn't know. Was I suppose to say something?

Paah. I just don't know what I feel atm. Its like everything. I'm very much in so much pain. I feel so pathetic. I feel such an idiot, here's me still in love with him. But I have to face the facts. It just hurts. So so much.

The moment he told those things, I just knew I just had to drop it. Cos what's the point? He likes someone else and he doesn't feel the same anymore, and if I didn't drop it.. I'd look like a fricking idiot who's making a fool of herself. I just thought that it would be different. But no.

I just really don't know what to do now. I've been crying non-stop. My eyes hurt. It just didn't work out. I just have to deal it with it. Slowly I guess.

Right now, I'm missing him so much and I don't know what the f*ck I'm gonna do. But its just not right anymore.

PAAAAH.

2009-07-31T21:58:00.000+01:00

This post is too harsh. :( ~ So i deleted it.

How right?

2009-07-31T17:11:00.001+01:00

Just thought I'd share my horoscope for today :)

The situation appears to be straightforward, but as it often happens when you're involved, things are more complicated than they seem. You're right to be suspicious of shell games. Someone's hiding something important.

I'm feeling a lot better.

2009-07-31T16:55:00.000+01:00

Ahuuuh. Thanks to the daily medicine I have here at home, I'm recovering. Thank God. I've been noticing something odd about myself. I seem to be having difficulty breathing well, I don't know actually.. sometimes it that, but at times its just tightness and paah. what the heck. I'm blabbing crap. LOL. Talking about that's not even interesting. Im not gonna bore myself typing crap like that.

Anyhuz. Lately, there's been 2 people that has irritated me quite a lot this past few days. Well, technically annoyed me and I'm just like WTFFFFFF!?

Person #1 : Yes, I know I get you! You don't need to slap yourself to everyone with what you have at the moment. I know that you've gooooot everything, damn a lot of people would be jealous of you too bad I'm not. I don't care how many or whatever. Just shut up. Lol.

Person #2 : I don't even know how to start this off. You have been giving me a lot of reasons for such things that I didn't think was going to even happen. I just can't believe you. You're just idk. Hah, I know anytime soon you'll realize that something's not right, and I will probably agree with you.

That was nice. That helped me a lot. [NOT]

Being ill sucks.

2009-07-27T17:48:00.001+01:00

Yes. :(

I am ill. Paah. I don't want to be frickin ill. Aaaaaaah. I need to take my Vitamin Cs ><"

Good old times.

2009-07-26T20:14:00.000+01:00

Haha. How funny, I just had a very interesting fun conversation with my mom and dad. Well, we we were just talking about the past and those good old times when I was younger and stuff. Paah. I miss being so young and all small and innocent and LOL.

Maaaan, I'm 16. I'll be like 17 in like 4 frickin months. Then next year I'll be 18 and so on. Crap. I'm old. T^T ~

I'm a kiddiekidkidkid.

2009-07-25T19:49:00.001+01:00

Yeah. I still am a kid. LOL.

My mother would so agree with that! ~
She still sees me as a kid, I think that's her reason for being too overprotective at times. Oh well. La la la.. I've just realized, I've only got crap things to say for today.

Wow, my summer is just so interesting!

I promise, I will be back with shiiiloads of stuff to say, sooner or later. Patience <3

So now you want to make decisions on your own.

2009-07-24T18:03:00.000+01:00

Okay. So yeah, me and my friends were planning to go London in August right? So, today we bought the train tickets and stuff. I know, we got too excited when we bought the tickets, but loadsaaa stuff happened with the tickets and it was quite expensive and that. So yeah, I've now got a ticket, but the thing is I haven't told my parents about it?

When I got home, my mom was having a shower getting ready for work, and after she had that shower she was like, who were you with and that crap. Its cos I didn't exactly tell her I was gonna go out today, I only told her before I went out. So she was having a go at me for doing that and how its not good letting your parents know like the day and before, and plus I forgot to tell my dad yesterday? Pfsh. So yeah, she asked me what we did.. So I had to tell her we went to the train station and liked looked around on how much the tickets would cost to London, and she was just like okay. So after that, I told her I already have booked the ticket. She was surprised. She never knew I was planning to go London with my friends in the first place. The conversation went like this:

Me: I've already bought the tickets for London
Mom: How did you pay for it?
Me: With my card?
Mom: Did you even ask us for permission if you can go?
Me: No...
Mom: Are you trying to tell us something that you want to make decisions on your own?
Me: No? [i was like thinking and i was just like WTTTTFFF??]

Seriously, I'm not trying to prove anything. Its just I don't really tell my parents as soon as we've planned something. I'm more of "i'll tell my parents the day before we'll go" kinda thing. I know this is bad.

Pah. Lately I've noticed, I've not been making the right choices, cos anything I do atm seems just like its not good enough or it's bad. I just don't get it.

Today was pretty much like any other day.

2009-07-23T20:39:00.000+01:00

To be honest, nothing interesting really is happening in my life. Hah. But I guess I'm just used to sooooo much stuff that, what the heck. Im talking crap now. LOL.

I am inlove with this <3 ;

Blah blah blah.

2009-07-22T18:49:00.000+01:00

I am bored. Blah blah blah. That is all.

Abandoned no more. ^^

2009-07-08T22:47:00.000+01:00

Hello.

I'm back again. Hah. Stupid blog thing. Idk. I feel like blogging again. Because yeah. Hah. Well, how's life? Life is okay. Life is okay atm? Yes. It pretty much is. :) ~

I'm enjoying everything there is to enjoy.

Well there is something wrong. But it's no biggie. Its nothing to be really worried about tbh. I'll probably end up forgetting about it. Cos yeah.

Aah. I really don't know what to say on here. I just want to get into blogging again. So, I'm gonna try this again.

But for now. :) Later.

Oh-em-gee. Too Long.

2009-04-09T13:25:00.000+01:00

LOL. I knew I abandoned my blog. Haha. Ohwells. Anyways. I've been thinking. I might aswell update my blog. Cos I have nothing better to do in life just to go on here. So yeh.

Not much has happened recently. So I think Im just gonna end my post here.

The illness revolves around me

2008-11-20T15:35:00.000Z

Ok. So like, I couldn't post yesterday cos I was ill. So today I'm feeling a bit better and guess what! I have prepared a video for all of you! Bahaha. See me live in action. Lmao.

hmm. why the sudden dumbness?

2008-11-18T20:57:00.000Z

yes. why the sudden dumbness? I really don't know why. I feel soo dumb at this moment of time. I don't even believe Im gonna pass my exams this year. I need to really focus now. I really do.

maybe I should eat lots of nuts. Hah. That's a start.

When students get wild.

2008-11-18T12:15:00.000Z

Lmao. I'm supposed to be doing my DT final container product at this moment of time. And I'm currently slacking off. Ahaha. Instead of doing it.. I'm here blogging.

Hah.

Anyways. Im gonna do more slacking.

Goodbye

Lesson for today: Don't take dramas in to heart.

2008-11-17T17:34:00.000Z

Ok. So there's this drama called Miss No Good (Bu Liang Xiao Hua) and it's near it's ending.. And like I watched the preview for ep 12.. and OHMYGASHM it was really sad. Cos Jia Si Le had a car crash and he was in coma. And I was just like thinking they shouldn't have done that! So now I'm like going gaaaaahh gaaaaahh for ep 12 to come out! But I have to wait for like until next Monday.. I am just so shocked. I want to cry. I just want Xiao Hua to be with Jia Si Le. But it's not gonna end that way though. She's with Tang Men. Oh well. That's how the drama goes anyway. It always has to be sad for the lonely cute guy. If only I can just have Jia Si Le if only it was possible. But it's not. Ahaha.

My mind feels so blank. <>

Sweet Sixteen to moi.

2008-11-16T15:39:00.001Z

Wheee! Ohmygashm. It's my birthday today! I really can't say much other than saying it's my birthday today! Ahaha. So I'm sixteen today. It doesn't feel any different from being fifteen..

Ok. I forgot to tell you guys, my friends surprised me with such an awesome cake yesterday! Omd. It was really sweet of them to do that Awwness. Thanks again guys.

Anyways, I'll share some of the birthday messages I've received today on my phoneage. ^_____^

From: Krizia
at 12:21am
"Ace! Advance happy bday!
Ayy nde na pla advance...HAPPY BDAY na pla!!
Hahaha! HAPPY HAPPY BDAY!
Hav a very nice day! :)"

From: Vernadine
at 10.00am (wow! exactly 10! galing ng skills!)
"Bon anniversaire..
Bon anniversaire..
Bon anniversaaiiiirree..
Bon anniversaire!!
Hip hip..
Hoorraahh!
Have a fabby dabby day!
:D:D"

From: Nasha
at 10.03am
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHKA HOPE U HAV A GREAT DAY!!! X"

From: Rosie R.
at 10.52am
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Lol. Have you got anything nice? X"

From: Belden
at 12.32pm
"Rachelle b or rachel? D ko alm eh newez sum1 tld me b-day mu daw so juz wna greet u hekhek hapii b-day! Enjoy ur day n may mre b-days 2 cme! Yay u! =D"

That's all I can be bothered to share now! Lmao.. Grabee! Thank you soo much guys!

Almost 16.

2008-11-15T19:10:00.000Z

Thank you so much guys for making my 16th birthday early so fun! I love you all guys sooooooooooo much! ^______^

and for those who didn't make it. Thank you anyway!

Thanks guys for the wonderful presents you've given me! I sure will treasure them.. Oh yeah.. I will post some of the pics tomorrow, I have to find the usb for my camera, and I have no idea where the flip they are!

I had sooo much fun today! So many things happened, I'm still full from the food we ate! ^___~ I sure know what my birthday wish... which is.... 发现我白马王子 (if you can read chinese O.o ohhh boy.. if not. SHAME!) well my other wish is for everybody to have happy lives! And that we're all happy and everything goes smooth ;)

Gaaaaaashm. I'm so tirrreeeed. I really can't wait for my exact birthday tomorrow! WOOOOOP.

SWEET 16 TOMORROW.

♥

2 Days! OH-MY-GASHM.

2008-11-14T18:43:00.000Z

Happy birthday to me... in 2 days!

Omgashm! I can't wait. Lol. Well tomorrow is le celebration with my friends. Im kind of really excited now! It's gonna be fun! ^_____^

Ok. Today was pretty interesting. Lots of things happened today. Like so much b*tching about people.. Aha. It was quite funny in a way but bad and I'm suppose to be their friends. Ok. A lot of things were spread around well rumors. But I didn't cause them. Well I think I did, but I don't know? I don't really want to go in detail about it. Cos I will get blamed for it. Hayy. I don't want to tho. I want to be happpppy.

Lmao. Apparently I have Tomboy Converse-ish type of fashion style. Im happy. I don't actually mind. I actually am like that. Im not really in to the whole girly girl type of thingiesss. Ahaha. As you can see I have changed my bloggie again. I thought the one I had before was a wee bit too girly. ^O^ but this is kawaii too ^____~

Im just soo happy today. I'm gonna be 16!! Woop.

I have nothing else left to say. Lol.

I'll just update you guys whenever I can. :)